wuwuwuwu...
i wish i can go back before 09/09/09...
argh....i really want to cry now....
my adidas watch...present from my lovely sisters...
i just saw a warranty card inside the box...
its 2 year warranty card...
but it cant be used anymore...
09/09/07 - o9/09/09 (2 years)
wuwuwuwuwuwuwuwuwuwuwuwuwu....
i want to go back time....please....
im going crazy now....
im sorry my sisters...
i just forget to check the warranty card...
im really really really sorry...
i will take a good care of the watch...
i <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3 very much...

Boy Meets Girl (Romeo + Juliette)

(Ho)
A painful love story
A love that chilled my heart
Leaving only my gasping breath
Getting further away, growing faint
(oh oh oh oh oh oh)
Girl meets boy
and begins a painful love
their unspeakable love becomes an echo
and love begins again

I loved her, I wanted her
I only saw her, so even though I hate this
My heart cries, wanting to express more
And another day passes in sadness

With only the memories of my love
I know being selfish about you is unnecessary
But now I feel a little confused
You who doesnt know is my boo
I only look at you

A love begins again
You don’t know me
or my love for you
A painful love begins again
I can’t control these feelings
that surge up when I see you
I hate the word goodbye
But I’m a fool that can’t even stop you
from leaving by saying ‘I love you’
I love you! I want to see you

(I still don’t understand)
I don’t know love, I don’t know heartbreak
I still don’t understand
But I know my heart wants you
Oh, my Girl! Oh, my Love!
(Baby, baby, baby, baby)
There is a cloud as pure as your eyes
Just knowing that we see it together is beautiful
The day when the clouds become rain
We can’t see it any longer
This unavoidable consequence
Really hits me at the bottom of my heart

Silently I think about you
I yell to myself ‘I like you’
The echo responds ‘No way’
Without you, my feelings are down
I still believe that you will return
I fell so deep in love
with such a girl like you
Don’t think of me as just a boy
I want to become a man
who can be your love

A love begins again
You don’t know me
or my love for you
A painful love begins again
I can’t control these feelings
that surge up when I see you
I hate the word goodbye
But I’m a fool that can’t even stop you
from leaving by saying ‘I love you’
I love you! I want to see you

Today I will say that I love you
I will make you love me
Our love began so difficultly
Even though you were waiting
I wasn’t able to hold onto you
But that old me is gone

A love begins again
You don’t know me
or my love for you
A painful love begins again
I can’t control these feelings
that surge up when I see you
I hate the word goodbye
But I’m a fool that can’t even stop you
from leaving by saying ‘I love you’
I love you! I want to see you

A love begins again, A love begins again
(A painful love story
A love that chilled my heart
Leaving only my gasping breath
Getting further away, growing faint)
That love begins again, that love begins again
(Girl meets boy
and begins a painful love
their unspeakable love becomes an echo
and love begins again)
I don’t want a goodbye, don’t want a goodbye
(Darling, there are more things I want to say
But knowing that it will never reach you
hurts my heart, hurts my heart, hurts my heart)
I don’t want a goodbye, don’t want a goodbye
(Darling, stop worrying about
if I will come back to you
Get rid of this foolishness, erase it, okay?
P.S Finally,
If I could hear your voice just once..)

I, I love you

sedih...
bila terkenangkan peristiwa dulu...

perit...
bila memori lama masih meghantui diri...

pedih...
bila luka lama masih belum diubati...

benar bila orang kata jangan diingat perkara lama...
tapi itu kata orang...
bukan kata hati sendiri...
kita yang menentukan bukan orang lain...

kadang2 benar orang yang pernah lalui keadaan sebegitu tahu apa yang terbaik...
tapi itu diri mereka...
bukan diri kita...
kita hanya mampu mengambil iktibar daripada mereka...

pelik tapi benar...
memang begitu...
diri ku selalu begini...
dihantui kisah silam...
yang tak pernah ku ingin dilupakan...
walaupun sedih, perit dan pedih...
ku tak kan melupakan nya...
kerna ia adalah hak aku...
dan aku adalah aku...
dan kau adalah kau...
diri kita berbeda...
tak sama...

walaupun hati ku bagai dibubuh garam...
dicarik...
dirobek...
dengan kata2 mu...
tingkah laku mu...
tapi tak pernah ku simpan dendam...
kerna ku tahu itu bukan nawaitu mu...

apa lagi yang boleh aku katakan...
hati ku memaksa ku menulis post ini...
bukan kehendak diri ku...
tetapi hati ku...
di dalam nya sedang membuak-buak perasaan yang ingin dilepaskan...
tiada tempat lain dapat dilepaskan selain di sini...
di sini tempat ia dapat menunjukkan diri nya...
di sini lah tempat luahan hati ku...

Hello everyone...
I just would like to share my essay with you all...
I do this essay in the JPWP BI Trial...
But I never finished the story properly...
Now I want to make-up for what I have done...hehehe...
The tittle is...


"Hai, would you be my friend?". That was the first line Apple ever said to Leo. If not because of that, Leo maybe still will be alone until now. Until now, Apple and Leo already be friends for about 17 years. They really close to each other as they grow at the same residential area. Everything they do, they do it together.

Apple is one of the most beautiful girl in the school. She was called as the "Beauty" because of her good appearance and personality. She has medium length, dark brown, curly hair and green sparkling eyes with a touch of hazel in them which make you melt when she looks at you. Her smile makes you feel warm and comfortable. She is different than Leo. He was called as the "Beast" in the school because of his not good looking appearance and his passive personality. He has short length, orange, spike haiz and dark brown eyes like a beast which make you never ever want to look at him not even once.

One day, while studying at the library, Leo ask Apple something.
"Apple, would you like to play a game with me?"
"Hmm? What type of game?", she replied.
"How about we pretend to be couple for 30 days?"
"What!!!", she shouted.
"Shhhh!!!Please keep quite. This is library", said the other student near them.
"Hmm. Let me think about it awhile", said Apple.
"Ok", Leo replied.
Both of them start to study back as normal.

On the way to the bus stop, Apple tell Leo her decision.
"Leo, i already think about it and...and..."
"And what you decision?"
"I think its okay since both of us never couple and lets make this as practice for both of us. How that sounds to you?"
"Its sounds good to me. So starting from tomorrow, we are officially a couple"
"Okay!", she smiled at Leo.

Day 1, both of them at the garden in the school during the recess.
"Do you thirsty?", Leo asked.
"Yeah. Could you please buy me some water?"
"Sure. It is my pleasure", both of them start to chuckle a bit.

On the way to the cafeteria, Leo was block by a group of three guys. He already know the guys. All of them was in the same class as Leo. The one with the light brown hair was Zac, the leader of the group, and the other two boys is Que and Mic.
"So, i heard that you are now couple with Apple? Didn't you?", Zac asked.
Leo don't said a word. He back off and tried to use another way. Zac was really mad. Suddenly, a punch land on Leo's face. He lost his balance and fell backward, crashing down heavily onto a nearby table, cracking it in half. He was scarlet with anger. Than, he started to punch back Zac and both of them started to fight like cat and dog. All the students near there starting to gather around to see the fight. Both of them continue to fight while the others give supports.
"FIGHT!FIGHT!FIGHT!"

At the garden, Apple was waiting for Leo. She scared something happen to him so she make a decision to go out to search for him. On the way to the cafeteria, she saw a group of people gather around to see a fight. She was shocked when he see than Leo was in the fight.
"STOP! I said stop, both of you!", she shouted.
Suddenly, the crowd was in a deep silence. She quickly go through the crowd, grab Leo's hand and go away from the fight place. Leo was really shocked with what just happen.

Both of them go back to the school's garden.
"Leo, why are you in a fight?", she asked while taking her tissue to whip the blood on Leo's face. He was remain speechless for a long time.
"Ouch. It is not my fault. Zac start the fight first", he replied.
Leo start to tell the story about what just happen at the cafeteria.
"Oh, now I understand. But please don't get into a fight again. I don't want to see you get hurt again. Thank God that you not badly injured. Promise don't leave me alone like that again"
"Ermm. I promise"

Time pass by quickly. It almost 29 days they both been together. After having dinner at Leo's place. Leo walked Apple to her house. The night air was calm, yet it snapped with a cold bitter bite. The sky was full of bright, dancing stars shimmering in the sky. The luminescent moon gave an undiluted vision from the tinted glass. They walked slowly toward her house. They were hand in hand, with matching beats, created by the slow sequenced steps they each took. Their glazed eyes which peered at one another crated a silence. Suddenly, a light from the sky break the silence. It was the meteor rain. They both stared at the amazing scene that only occur once a while. Apple was mumbling something with her mouth and Leo was wondering what would her wish that time. After a while, the meteor rain finally ends and they continue the walked. They finally reach her house.
"It's finally the time to say goodbye", said Leo softly.
"Ermm. Tomorrow is our last day, right?", asked Apple.
"Yeah. Lets make tomorrow the best last day we ever had, okay?"
"Okay"
They let go of each other hand and waving to each other while Apple was get in the house. Leo just watch her as she lost from his vision.

As promise, today is the day they will ends their relationship. After having dinner and watch movie, they both go to the flower garden near the mall.
"Do you thirsty?", Leo asked.
"Yeah. Could you please buy me some water?"
"Sure. It is my pleasure"
"Please be careful this time, okay?"
"Okay, don't worry to much"

Its quite long since Leo goes to buy drinks. Apple started to worried and suddenly she hear a crash sounds. She quickly go out the garden to see what had happen. She was in a shock like struck by thunderbolt when he see Leo was in the accident.
"Leo!!!", she shouted as she run quickly to the scene.
"Please call 999! Fast!"
"Leo, please hold on"

The siren of the ambulance filled in the air. Now, Apple and Leo in the ambulance on the way to the hospital. Apple is holding Leo's wallet. Suddenly, a letter comes out from the wallet. Slowly, she pick it up and started to read.


Dear Apple,

You was like an angle send by God to me. The glimpse of your smile, the glazed of your eyes and the touched of your smooth hands makes the world around me seems to be so perfect like i was in a heaven. I can't never wish more better for what i already have now; to be together with you. I wish this game will never ends until the ends of my life because I already find the "Beauty" just for the "Beast". It always hard for me to said the three words for you. But now i would like to say that "I Love You".


She folded back the latter and she broke down and cried.
"Leo, please don't go now"
"Please don't leave me alone again"
"Remember last night?"
"I also wish that this game will never ends"
"So, please. I beg you don't leave me"
"Because I love you too"

She never thought that Leo was thinking the same as she do. She really hope that the accident was never happen. But it was to late, a long "Beep" sound comes out from the pulse machine and it was the time for Leo to go.